Victim-no-more's story

i have finally full on owned and faced this very painful hard fact and truth i went searching and looking for someone to fill the holes i was missing in my life and when i found my N went spent hours talking and i literally spoon fed him everything to know about my insecurities, fears, my past , my family and what i want and am looking for. suddenly i found myself no longer lonely no longer unattractive no longer sleeping alone or going out doing things alone my phone was going off and i was told i was loved and then when things shifted and i fell off the pedestal i fell hard, begged to be back on the pedestal"earned it" and fell again there are days that go by i hear more memories and things he said do me a favor dont tell the next guy your with how the other guy treated you im going to copy paste a drunk fight in the early months i wrote when i started a online journal with him warning this may hurt some who have empathy met up with Brett He was acting really weird and started texting god knows who anyway I was getting to a point where I was done with him period He was constantly hurting my feelings I didn’t know what I was doing anymore I was so caught up in the mess and tangled with emotions I couldn’t see straight He was texting and acting really arrogant and mean towards me in the meanwhile Then got a text and said goodbye to Lori and me and started to leave I said lets go outside we need to talk Very firmly I was going to end the bullshit And the games I asked him what the hell was going on and I wanted the truth He said “say it are you accusing me of cheating on you” I was like you have been acting like a asshole all night and I don’t deserve it He and I continued to fight I don’t have this all verbatim or anything here is the jest He wanted to see me then got pissed off when he did and he doesn’t know why Then he told me I was a trophy That this whole thing was a lie and that he is enjoying it a GREAT deal That he never wanted to be with me He never meant anything he said to me Laughed about it smiling sickly as he said he never meant I love you either that he was drunk when he said it and laughed again at saying this Continued on to say he never said I love you sober or looking in my eyes That I have never met any of his friends Basically he was fucking with me and I made it easy for him to do it When he said he never said I love you looking in your eyes And was drunk when I said it He said I was a game I felt the strength in my body leave and I forced myself to not hit my knees I have not allowed this to happen again to myself There were all the signs so early on I just told myself this was different IT FELT DIFFERNT The whole time he talked he looked proud of himself Smiling and when I said are you proud of yourself he said yes I wished him all the best Called him a coward And said fuck off He also erased my phone number out of his phone Demanded I do the same If you can believe what im about to say he Said he does love me That I am beautiful That I carry myself like a siren That everyone wants to be with me And all the girls want to be me All the while saying the above When I got home I allowed myself to cry more I keep running through my head Why did he do this Why did I allow it What am I going to do now How do I really feel And why am I so confused As much as I cried sitting there at the bottom of the shower I felt like I was losing my mind I know crazy, but I felt it the pain was unreal then somehow ladies i stayed THREE YEARS all because the next day i got im sorry im scared im pushing you away i dont deserve you etc GOOD GOD!!!!! i could slap myself repeatedly i hope some of you can relate to this that is why i shared it

You are in the right MINDSET so this is a start..... He would be a MASTER AT HIS CRAFT... he has been doing it since he could first talk......let his other supply mop up his tears and listen to his poor childhood..... YOU JUST BE DONE WITH HIM...GOOD LUCKX