Having a rough one. Crying all day...
Despite his disorder, I truly loved him.
I didn't know he was sick. I thought he was slightly broken like me, like most of us in this world.
Unlike him, I have a heart full of love. I truly loved him. He was the love of my life -and I was his...and so I thought.
I swear I felt love from him! I could bet my life on it! Deep love!
Are they truly that scary?
I struggle with him not capable of love and now him with this much younger girl... maybe she's the one.I know we all ask this... But what if? We don't know for sure!
Then I struggle with "maybe he isn't disordered, maybe he and I were a bad match?"
I am so messed up. I feel lost and scared that I won't ever get over him and this horrible broken heart. This is the worst pain I've ever felt.
And he is out having fun and living his life. Why does he deserve that? How is that fair?
I'm really low tonite. Needs some loving words of encouragement.
Why did he do this to me? How could he? He has completely cut me off. So cold. Can't stop crying!!!!!