This morning had a flood of memories that I couldn't stop. I am recollecting dialogue, and actions that I didn't pick up on when they happened.
The day before I said goodbye, he started tickling me which I hate. I begged him to stop. He kept doing it. I felt helpless. He then said, "fine if you don't want me to touch you, I won't" and walked away. It was my birthday.
What a sadistic SOB. The day went downhill from there. It included more insults and the silent treatment. Normal 50 year olds don't act like that. I've been around truly loving people and have seen them with their partners. They treat one another with respect and dignity. This was cruelty at it's worst. I said in earlier posts that I miss him. Miss what? Being treated like crap? Wondering when I'd be discarded? These are torture techniques. I've boosted my self esteem up and have decided that I deserve better. We all do!