How can I ever get things back with him? :'(
How can I ever get things back with him? :'(
Somebody please help me.
It's really hard to still accept and believe all of this.
I have been reading so so much online be it all articles for a month. I am too exhausted after my exams, i cant read more. After reading n having friends around, i am empowered, but if i dun read other people's stories and advices I fall back to square one instantly.
I just break NC, like thou everywhere is recommending and advised NC is the best and the only way, i went to find him I beg, well I tried to cry but when I meet him I was blank. Perhaps minutes before he willing to turn up after my persuading, I am too pissed off n exhausted from explaining to him why he should come out and meet me without any benefits for him. I cry I beg I know I shouldn’t. I was so wanting until I almost wanted buy those get back ex online book, just that I have no cash card.
I cant stop thinking and regretting how nice wondering and amazing he was but I lost it, somehow it's all my fault, but i never meant it too, I was having pms that week my mood and temper wasn’t under my control.
I want him back, but no matter how I explain I say I speak I ask I beg and beg and beg, in sms in calls in face to face like today, all is no use. He is cold and hard as i duno like a rock. I just cant move him at all.
But one thing for sure, base on his character he wouldn’t bother if I die or what, but he would still reply to my sms and calls, what a miracle?
So what about NC? That didn’t make him worry or even contact me back. He says now his life and priority would be all on his family, friends and dance!!!! He moved on ultra well, just like any typical NARS they are charming, popular no body would ever see any problems in them.
And BTW he pushed me away not only claiming:
-I do not admit my mistakes (I did and apologies already in fact),
-he says he loves dance (he want attention and spotlight I know),
-he says he has some illness that we can never be the same.
I cried and keep assuring I do not mind , I DON’T MIND, but he just keep rebutting: “so what you don’t? I mind!”. So whats going on here? I said I want to go through with him no matter what illness he has cos we promised eachother never let go of each other, WE SAID THAT, but how can he be so irresponsible, heartless to forget every single thing!!!!!????
Somebody please tell me, enlighten me, why why why, why would someone change so much and fast like instantly which is not even medically scientifically possible!!!!?????
Someone who don’t miss a past, remember nothing at all.
After together about 2 years, he would still always bring out the past quarrels and talk about it how I have resulted in those quarrels which affected the relationship. But hell no, most of the time it was him being too demanding and jealous that he confronted me that’s why we quarrel. SO I feel he do have NARS, but maybe I plays a part too. Becos he was really nie and great and fantastic at the beginning, its so hard for me to accept things changed so much, I cant take it I cant believe it, no. I am thinking maybe I hurt his feelings a lot at the beginning of the relationship that worsen any NARS he has naturally. He used to be really sad and hurt whenever there are guys after me, one guy is like a torture to him I can see. There were like about 6 guys or more I duno, but for sure I am feeling I hurted his feelings too much.
Even recently in December while I was having PMS, I said and does things that hurt him, but I didn’t mean it, but he was so offended and unwilling to let it go. I was so angry he left me alone and thinking everything, I felt he don’t deserve me, so I initiate breakup a lot times recently. But finally one day he agreed to it and make it the way is he wanting to break up with me.
Or worst I turn him into a NARS cos he is someone so intense, so he really got hurt till the extent of turning a NARS. In that case, all the more I feel more guilty and sad and obligated to turn back and make things better for us.
I cant forget the days we had, how he is always there for me, he was so good to me. He really was. I swear. But he said we will never be the same.
I know his dance is far more attractive than I am, more rewarding than I could anymore. But why couldn’t he give up dancing to work things out with me, you know I am willing, cos now I really know how to be a better person.
Someone to let me know I aren’t alone.
Sorry I am not in a clear state of mind (I know everyone is expecting we/ I should). Sorry ladies.
But I really wish and want to go back to the past, I really want to.
What can I do to make us back???????????????? Please teach me. :’(
Or is there anyways I could have him back?
A person of so much NARS in him.
Any experienced people?
Please share and help. ):
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Same SHIT; different day
@indenial Yes, every thing
AG
I've been ewxactly where your
AquariusGal
thankyou sherbear(: i like
Same here.
Wow
no lonely
Not sure....
stay~strong
thanks Aquarius Gal
Aceonelady
Aww thanks for your
ty ladies for the comfort
Aquariusgal
full of projection, lack of empathy, hardly have any conscious
At this point....
stay~strong
no value but to be noticed.
Please, if you value yourself .....
Aquarius