I went back What the heck ...
I went back What the heck ...
I am so disappointed in myself. It is such a strange dichotomy ...when he is on the hunt a suppose and feels like he has to get me back our relationship is so rad. He is fun, playful, ect ect ect...but the second I start to feel comfortable he gets selfish and narc like again.... I am so disappointed in myself for falling for it again. I also read here a lot and ive been reading a lot on setting boundaries. I wrote a letter to my inner child ( suggested by my therapist ) and it helped a lot . I have realized I have always had some type of guilt in setting boundaries... and have never followed through with them...like somehow sub consciously I didn't believe I was worth setting boundaries and was scared if I did that people wouldn't like me and there for I would feel unlovable. Anyhow that being said I feel like I have been doing the deep soul searching and the crying and praying and mediating but I am still drawn to this man who only shows me dignity and respect when he feels he should ex. when I am adoring him... He has so many Narc quality's yet sometimes I find myself wondering if he really is a narc and if he isn't am I giving up too soon? Has this happened to anyone else? How did you finally decide yep this is a shit relationship and he is a Narc? I am really down on myself tonight... Learning to set boundaries ( silver lining ) Hope everyone is having a good night and thank you for reading :)
Be strong and stay No Contact
Thank you so much
staying, sweetiepie...
spinning
your words have brought me to tears
Usually we don't come here to
thank you DS
Keep your head up, baby.
I hope you don't do this,
you are right :)
Gawd. Been there, done that.
Tsis hot and cold behavior
thank you
If you questioning whether he
what made you or helped you realize ...