Sunrise's Story
Sunrise's Story
What a God send this forum is to me. After being d&d and dropping to a hundred pounds and could not articulate what was happening to me. All I knew was for the last fifteen years I felt as I was going mad! His main complaint about me and why he was leaving me was that I talked to my friends about our marriage. He didn't mention his "alleged" 5 affairs or the insane amount of abuse he tormented me with. I could write a novel on his behavior...to the extent of wanting to leave this world. And his reaction..." you are just doing this to get attention to manipulate people into believing the supposed abuse I have given you". I could give a million one liners...I don't need to "FUCK" you because you are my wife...All it would be is a screw, that means no feelings are in it. If you would be nicer, have dinner, and my laundry done I would have sex with you or be affectionate.
AHHHHHHH I want to rip off my own head so I can stop these horrible one liners from going on and on..."I would have killed to work out a marriage with you if you didn't make such a big deal about the accused affair "( Umm I sat in my bed for six months while the whole neighborhood talked about it because she lived in the next street and a member of the same church)
I need some advice because my N who now filed for divorce is a LCSW and a therapist! Talk about one who can twist and turn, manipulate and use their "education" against you. Also, he has all the "credentials" to diagnose if someone is crazy. Which he has told everyone I know that I am a "fucking crazy bitch". I feel I am fighting a no win battle first with a N and then with a educated N...
I will write my whole story but I don't know if there is enough time in my life to cover all the "crazy" making he has done...Oh by the way he told me he wanted to go to my therapy with me because he knows me better than anyone and can help my therapist in helping me through MY issues...
MY issues was HIM!
This is the last of my rant to help in any further thoughts...I am LDS or a mormon where family and being totally faithful to your spouse is the utmost highest priority in our religion. For a man to cheat is a huge blow to his standing or "reputation" to everyone in the church. The woman with who the "alleged" affair was with is also a member. We are a very tight community due to the fact that most everyone in the area is of the same religion so word spreads pretty darn fast around. So not only is his reputation of a therapist on the line here but his reputation of being a good member of the church in question...can you imagine the N injury to him and the rage he has taken out on me has been....OUCH!
Any thoughts are appreciated. I know all you understand me ( I type this with tears running down my cheeks) YOU GET IT and nobody else does. God bless you all. I pray non stop for the strength of God to get me out of this bondage.
Evil
Oh Geeze! Just because he's a
Sunrise, yes it is
Wow.