Athena's need for answers in the fog :-(
Athena's need for answers in the fog :-(
My brain has never felt so mashed up in all my life. I know I won't get the answers I seek from him, but the circular agitation that I feel in trying to find them within myself is breaking me down as much if not more than he did.
I know that on trying to get clarity from him I only got more fog. My brain is scrambling to make sense out of nonsense today, I hurt less in the heart but so much in my head. Can anyone help?
So: why would he 'risk' involving his family in the news of our 'wedding', encouraging me to speak with family members of our plans if he never meant to follow through? I just don't get that.
Why would he go around telling the whole world and his wife of his intentions to marry me, if he never meant to follow through?
What is he now telling them?
Why would he do all the things he does. I just don't understand. Why would he keep trying to keep me in his life only to play me like a fool. Why?
Did anything he ever said over these past two years, ever mean anything? Was nothing true?
Why would someone do that, why?
When I finally get strong to leave him, will he really be just the same in his next relationship? The thought that he may treat her better than me, is killing me, making me feel I wasn't good enough. Even though I can't imagine him being with anyone soon after this happens. Oh God, I'm hurting so much.
As much as his actions hurt me, so now do these questions.
I'd be so grateful to any response that can ameliorate my pain.
Finally, can anyone, anyone tell me how until I break from him I can take care of myself whilst in conversation with him?
Thank you,
Athena
athena
Indenial ((((((hugs4u)))))))
An update
Stronger every day :-)
Athena, braveheart...
spinning
Spinning- I feel your gentle soul, feels lovely :-)
Answers
Agnes
ATHENA! Have you been doing
Sparrow
Athena, my words were not
Sparrow
Athena
Ha!
So true...
"Self pity is okay, you've
Athena...
Michele
p.s. omitted question
Good news for you is...
Athena we can't really diagnose, we're not doctors
Diagnosis
Agnes
Most definitely both.