Going Over The Edge
Going Over The Edge
I have not posted in a while, though have been reading. I have been close to a breakdown and feel this is the final straw today. I don't want to go on like this, and have to get something out.
I started a relationship with someone I met online who turned out to full of contempt for me, mocked my kindness, nitpicked, played mind games (and accused me of playing them), he raged over nothing and I tried and tried to go NC. I caved in, though and an ashamed of myself for remaining friends with him, because I had not learned from all I read on here, so I was ashamed to post. He still treats me badly - although he does not want sex, he never mentions it now, but he has to control every damn thing.
Today is a very painful anniversary for me (death of a parent) and he said he would call me at a particular time. He didn't, and when I called him, his phone was off. I know I need to get a grip, because this is going nowhere, and I should not have rung him ... but I feel like going to bed, turning off the lights and never waking up. Over what? What is wrong with me that I can't just forget about him? I have tried so hard, but am so low I can't bear to even look at myself. Why do I even care? But he has never not called when he says, and I think he does it to unnerve me. Is this typical behaviour?
Sorry for the rambling, I just can't go on like this
Alibi
'When someone shows you who
almostlydia
It is a new day here, and I
this is so freakin familiar
Alibi, you are very clear in
Alibi
Precisely Msv
stay~strong
Sounds familiar
Thank you
alibi10
Used
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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"
Alibi
You are so strong
Your strength is in there.
oh gosh
Thank you all so much
Alibi
Briseis
I seriously doubt he feels
Sick of it
Alibi
his stuff
so sorry you feel this way
Jaycee
Alibi
oh sweetie ... Why do you
Oh gosh. I went thru the