Reconnected with my daughter again tonight.... *smile*
Reconnected with my daughter again tonight.... *smile*
She called. (all content is summarized)
It started out I was her "drive home entertainment"... or so she thought...
And I believed I would be able to interject into her world how patient and kind I needed her to be with me at this time. With an inlaying emphasis on "I am learning anew... and trying my damndest"...
We visited about 'history' some, and she interjected, "I can tell". (I heard I am proud of you). pat pat pat
Then I had to face a tough moment as a mom that 'phuked up'...
She shared with me how blessed she was that I followed through with 'spa day'. Even sending her the website and driving directions. She said, "I felt like I was worth spending time with".
OMG the flood of emotions that came with that one. In a flash of a moment I was proud of my own accomplishment witb a flood of guilt that my daughter has ever had to feel devalued.
I wept. (after we were off the phone ;)
I also felt anger. I felt embaressment... and it's ok. to feel. cuz deep down in my BEing I know it's different this time. I am, and will BE and so shall she... *giggle* and I get to help in it. Priceless!
Moral of the story?... ok, so u phuked some stuff up, today we get to "choose again"...
that comforts me.
a lot
I basically abandoned my
Oh wow
Oh Wow too
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
That was what really hit me
Very well said :)
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
Here's a good "parenting" link....
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
Briseis
Forgivness of oneSelf is haaaarrrrd
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
Thank you ((((((hugs)))))) :)
iAmMINE
Thanks Lisa!!
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
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(((((blueeyes)))))
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
:)