Why am I suddenly doubting what I know about him, I'm asking if he really is a Narc? What is wrong with me, Help please
Why am I suddenly doubting what I know about him, I'm asking if he really is a Narc? What is wrong with me, Help please
I am now doubting everything I began to believe about him. I was so convinced for a while that he was a total narc, now I am doubting it. I don't know if its because he has the ability to fall in love with the ow. I don't know if he just never loved me and hung on out of guilt. I dont know, does a real human being discard his family, take up with another with in a day, start his life over with someone else after sneaking around with them and several others for years? I don't know?? Let's be honest, there has to be a reason he wanted out so bad, so bad he allowed me to suffer until I threw him out......Im doubting what he is, because I hate myself so much for not shuting my mouth and pretending everything was ok, like I did for years, at least he would be here, and not there, and not prancing all over town with her. at least he would be just throwing her crumbs as he has for months, and years before they lived together the first time. I hate myself for not shuting the hell up, for acting like such a psycho, behaving like such an idiot, I hate myself because i allowed them to laugh at me, i gave them reason to do so. what if hes not a narc, just a guy whos been so unhappy for twenty five years that he grew to hate me so much that my suffering makes him feel better, maybe it eases the suffering he had to endure, maybe if i just was different and controlled him instead of giving him so much freedom he hung himself with it....now hes with someone who can give him all he wants finanacially, emotionally, and shes no me, she controls his every movement, and lets be honest if he hated so much, why did he go back. oh my mind is racing and im so sad tonight, does anyone think maybe this was all my fault and hes possibly not a narc, just a frustrated man, who wanted out of his marriage. I want to believe hes a narc, so that i dont have to blame myself but im afraid it was me and he just couldnt love me.
Jaycee
helldweller
Jaycee
If he was unhappy...a normal,
thanks deidre
Jaycee
Yes, I do believe in God
Jaycee
i feel so hopeless
Jaycee
jaycee
Theres still hope for you
"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess
Their patterns are always the same.
You see your back to your old
"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess
im strong
Jaycee
Aww Jaycee...i feel for
"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess
thanks imstrong
Jaycee
Jaycee
I know I regreted for a while
"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess
girls, i get it, i allowed the pain to consume me
Jaycee
I have not given up on Jayce
"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess
Hey Jaycee what you are going
scoop thanks for all your replies as well as everyone's
Jaycee
I really appreciate the replies, more than you know
Jaycee
Jaycee,
Journey on...
Jaycee
jaycee
You hate yourself too
"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess
Knowledge is empowering
momoya
jaycee