You've Lost that Loving Feeling

Happy sunday.

Went and bought some new scented candles and baking cupcakes the house is officially a home :)
vanilla and sugar and mint fill the air of the new place

got some plants too!:)

Thinking on him and his comments about me being cold. I was so afraid of seeing him in the start of break up and I needed to put a wall and I guess I did a good job. To me what felt filmsy to him felt like the great wall of china.

Sitting there with him on friday he was so defeated when he said 'you have been so cold to me' I was thinking all i done was avoid him I communicated very little

Just shunning and ignoring them must feel like the dead of winter.

My nature is warm and loving and he is more familiar with recieving that from me.

It is an adjustment for both of us. I sensed he was off his high horse. He couldn't justify how calling me a bitch helps this situation.

I very much still love him. I realized my love for him sitting there looking at him. It was the cologne. His smell is intoxicating to me. I had to end the conversation quickly. I knew something else was happening on friday. He was spending time with me. The minutes ticked by talking and I realized we were spending time together.

I sense he lost a little mojo too.

Even though I confess I love him - he makes my skin crawl. I could never let him touch me sexually again. i don't trust him at all now. He hurt me too much.

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going to frost the cupcakes now

have a good week peeps!