x 2 narcs :(

I realised what a narc was when my friend abused me. Ive been no contact for over a year and i have accepted it. At the same time i was trying to complete a phd under a narc supervisor. The lessons learned from dealing with my narc friend were useful in realising i couldn't change my supervisor. I had left my phd half completed in sept as i had started full time employment at another organisation. Recently, i tried to get my supervisor to agree to complete the phd over the internet. She refused. I also realised no contact also means no email as well as physical contact. She managed to hurt me and make me feel i was at fault and lonely through email. It has been 2 weeks since i realised i have to just walk away. I cant even enter the university i was bullied so bad. I don't see myself being able to swap supervisors.

I feel lonely, less confident, like i have no friends and that im in the wrong, that there is something wrong with me. I feel like i did when i went no contact with my friend at the beginning. Scared to be alone, not feeling connected and feeling off balance, like everyone else was having a better life than me and that i am a lonely little sad person with no friends.

They are crap and there is nothing to do but cut my loses. Any support is appreciated, thank you.