Wrong

Is it wrong that I don't feel like writing a goodbye letter? Sometimes I want too, but I don't want to rehash my feelings at this point. I remember when I wrote my story, I actually became ill. I am starting to forget all sorts of stuff abt him. But I always have the intrusive thoughts of him all freaking day!!!
I have accepted that the thoughts maybe part of the healing sometimes and other times they are my minds way of keeping me from facing the pain and disappointment.

I feel like sometimes I don't want to give him another minute of my life, the site saves me. If I feel an ounce of cd coming on I run on here or I read the books. But I am stuck on the goodbye letter.

Maybe I am thinking too much!

VHG