Would love some feedback :)

I am 6 months fully NC and I have made great strides in my recovery thanks largely in part to this Forum. Whilst I don't post a lot, you have all made a huge difference in my Life.

I find this stage I am at interesting because for the most part I feel like myself again and I am having great successes at work and in my personal relationships with friends and family. I feel a lot of joy and happiness daily and look forward to Life again. The one part I still struggle with on a daily basis is my self esteem in terms of my perception of my physical attributes and interactions with the opposite sex. When I am interacting with men I can feel that I have a huge invisible wall up and I am very hard on myself in terms of my physical appearance. Nothing seems good enough and I keep thinking "nobody wants me" just like the N made me feel during the D & D phase (I could literally feel his eyes picking me apart at the end).

I've never nit picked my physical appearance to death like this before, and always felt attractive in the past. I've been eating super healthy and working out so I feel strong and healthy, but realize I need to find self love again and to appreciate the courageous woman I see staring back at me in the mirror. I don't want this veil of self doubt and feeling unattractive to impact my future relationships with men and would love to go on a date or two, but I keep getting myself stuck with my own self criticizing ways. Anyways, in summary I was curious of others' experiences after the N and any feedback is greatly appreciated.

TY xo Rivergrace