Will I get there?
Will I get there?
Hello everyone, I'm new here. Considering the circumstances, I wish we had never met... that would mean none of us would be in pain.
I'm on the end stage of a long term relationship with an undiagnosed-N (definitely a LOT of traits present) and I'm finding it really hard to cope.
As everyone else I had the most amazing honeymoon period, almost surreal, which lasted a surprisingly long time- I'd say around 2 years.
And then, what happened? I'm not really sure, it's sort of blurry until now. The past months have been a struggle, him moving out, then back, then me out... and I can't get clarity on what will happen next.
I think in his head we're done for good, specially since he has no problem going out and flirting and texting his new "friends" generally just having fun, while I am going through hell with not just the pain from our relationship, but also my dad being in hospice and having nothing but days left.
It sickens me that I can't stop thinking I want to be in his arms again, wake up next to him. Then I see my father in that bed and think how the hell does someone who "loves me" leave me alone through this because he's more interested in being social?
Will I ever get to the point where I DO NOT love him anymore, where I DO NOT want to wake up next to him?
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