Why do I even care?

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#1 Apr 27 - 7AM
jelyma
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Why do I even care?

I have been separated from my ex for almost 3 years now. I left on my own accord with our daughter. He signed over sole custody to me without a fight. That part I got off easy and am grateful to not have to deal with that situation like so many here. For the most part life has been quiet and healing for both me and my daughter has gone well. I have been no contact for the majority of that time with only the odd phone message from him but no reply from me. Two days ago I turned on my facebook. He has been blocked since day one and I don't troll his profile. His face was on my screen as a person I may know. It was the first time I have seen it in so long that I couldn't help but stare at it. It was under a woman's name and not his own. So I bit and I clicked on the profile. It is his new girlfriend and it was his birthday. I saw a timeline full of their new life together. It made me mad and I have been thinking about it for two days now. This is after almost 3 years. I am raising a daughter, living in an apartment, struggling to pay bills on one income (no he does not pay child support--another story!) and here he is living in a house with a woman who has a son smiling in his backyard with his dog. So my question is why am I still mad? Why does one picture make me feel like this when I have barely thought of this man in so long and have moved on in my life? Why do I care if he is with someone else or what his life is like? I thought I was happy being single but now these feelings of loneliness have crept in and I feel like hey I deserve someone in my life too. It is petty little arguments like that in my head seemingly out of no where.

Apr 30 - 9AM
jelyma
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Thanks! Yes I do see it now

Apr 28 - 3AM
Lookforward
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Hi Jelyma,

Apr 28 - 5AM (Reply to #2)
Lookforward
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