Why.

Why are we all here if the n/psychopath is not worth worrying about?
Why am I a shell of a person who wants nothing to do with another human being, let alone a man..I am here because I keep TRYING to believe there will be light at the end of the tunnel...and sometimes I have tiny moments where I feel like I can do something...but for the most part I don't believe, I don't hold any hope and I even regret holding on to my integrity and telling the truth.
Either way I feel dead :(