Where is the Karma?

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#1 Mar 2 - 3PM
alfrebob
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Where is the Karma?

I am so angry today. My ex N brought me to my knees. He totally destroyed my life, took everything from me but I would not give in and let him have free access to my baby. He has a history of abusing women and children, I have the evidence in black and white from previous court orders and gut wrenching afidavits from his kids. He knew he could not go to court so he systematically destroyed me to make me give in, but I would not do it. Now I have no job. I was running my own business but he reduced me to a breakdown and I had to give it all up.

I worked in finance and I have today been rejected for another job that I applied for. I have not been able to say that I had to give up my business a year ago because an abusive fruitcake brought me to my knees.So I have to pretend that I gave up through choice to raise my baby. I am nearly 46 with a two year old and two other children to support. I have no money and I feel totally at a loss as to what to do. Can't set up on my own again as I need a regular income to pay my bills and child care for the little one.

In the meantime he runs a business that he bought with money scammed from me. His GF is also on the payroll. I live on benefits, in a scabby house in an area I hate.

He drives around in a flash car, whilst mine is on it's last legs. It was all I could afford after he got mine from me.

He's got his house and all our furniture.

He has not one qualification to his name. I am highly qualified and yet I have nothing. Employers look at me, 45 with a two year old and think I can get a younger version without kids or an older version with grown kids. All I want to do is get back to work and support my family.

I have tried so hard to keep going and be positive, waiting for fate to step in and give me a break.

I have spent my life doing the right thing while he has destroyed the lives of all his children and ex wives (3)

Where is the karma?

Why does an evil bastard like him have a successful life and I had it before I met him and I have lost it all?

Tonight I am so bloody angry!!

Mar 2 - 4PM
sparky2009
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I completely understand your

I completely understand your anger ! I feel it too at times. I watch my ex spend money on his gf and her son and talk about his wedding at work while I am there and I just get so angry I can barely breathe. I hear him talk about his extra money he gets from sales while my son gets nothing from him . This man has stirred up thoughts and emotions in me I never thought I could ever feel . I scare myself sometimes with the things I feel. I do believe that you get what you dish out. Often times it doesn't come in the timeline or the package we want it to but it does come. Sometimes when we think their lives are just peachy and wonderful they are actully the complete opposite . Remember the world's a stage and they are the actors of the most evil kind.
Mar 2 - 4PM (Reply to #2)
Barbara (not verified)
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support

keep fighting for support for the children. FIGHT and make sure their wages are garnished! ~~~~~~~~~ The world is a dangerous place, not only because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing. - Albert Einstein Visit My Info. Website for Abuse Victims
Mar 2 - 4PM (Reply to #3)
alfrebob
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Barbara

I get support for the baby. As much as the Child Support Agency can get for me. He is self employed so he can hide his earnings and there is nothing I can do...believe me I know it took 18 months to get a penny. The CSA in the UK is crap. Can't have any of what she earns so he knows that. I want to get my own work so I can support my kids myself so I don't need him...it's so difficult. Work will give me an identity and a goal. Take my mind off all this crap and move on. Stuck in limbo at the moment feeling crap.