Where to go from here..

Where to go from here, is what I have been asking myself.

I rent an unaffordable condo that I shared with exn, his kids and mine; the lease is in my name, making him obligation-free when he bailed. In the early stages of the breakup, and bcus of the humiliation of being talked about so badly by him, I wanted to move away.. far away!.. but thought it wasn't fair to my daughter to take her away from the town, school and friends she loves.

Rent in general (rather a home, condo or apt) is high and over-priced in my town, so I thought of purchasing a little affordable home. Tho my daughter will be going away to college in a year and I'm unsure when being an empty-nester, if I'd want to settle down for the long haul here by purchasing. And tho, this is where my kids and I grew up, I don't have family left here (they passed away or moved), so I don't have a specific connection to this town anymore.

So as I sit here, I'm boggled by what to do. I feel lost and admittedly lonely bcus there's a Christmas parade in town and I'm sure exn, his exwife he's now living with and their kids will all be there together.. last year, it was him, his kids and I there. So, I'm home feeling pity for myself and trying to avoid it turning into a full fledged night of sulking.

Hoped for some insight from anyone who had a similar situation in trying to pick up the pieces.