What Now?
What Now?
I am actually crying today, which I haven't done in a long time. Must be the birthday coming up. The thing I am thinking about is how he always used to say, "What now?" when he woud do something horrible and I would get upset. Like when I found out about him cheating with the woman in California, or when I found out he went to the airshow without the girls and me because he didn't want us along, or when he left us home on Christmas because he didn't want us along with his family. Totally, heartbreaking, devastating things. And he would sigh and say, "What now?" like I was the biggest ball and chain bitch on the face of the earth. Did anyone else feel that way? I was sooooo the opposite of a ball and chain. There were so many times I told him, I just want to live together so you can do what you want and I can stay home and take care of the kids, take care of you when you get home, spoil you, etc. I was the coolest girlfriend, he always said, I was like a guy and not demanding or annoying. And he turned it all around to make me look like a ball and chain. I asked him for three years to go somewhere overnight with me, just the two of us. One night. Could never quite get off of work, but could go overnight golfing at the drop of a hat, or to Vegas for a week three times a year, no problem. When I finallly cried the last time he did it, he rolled his eyes and said, "What now?"
Thank you
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Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.' --Mary Anne Radmache
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