What exactly am I missing?
What exactly am I missing?
I need to get this off of my chest today. I have been trying to figure out why I miss my NH. I am approaching 12 weeks NC and terrible memories are flooding my mind. am I missing him choking me, spitting on me, cheating on me, soliciting women on the internet for sex or massages? Am I missing degrading sexual encounters or him telling me how other women want him. Am i missing him punching me, making me feel so worthless and depressed that death would be a welcoming relief. Am I missing me and our son walking on eggshells? Am I missing him threatening me with guns?
What exactly am I missing? Am I missing him looking at other women when we are out together, or him ignoring me. Am i missing him not kissing me or showing me any affection? Am i missing 25 years of pure hell? My NH has done unimaginable thing to me for 25 years and even though I think I miss him all I have to do is remember how I felt after every violation and look at how far I've come and I know that I don't ever want to feel this way again!
NC saved my life and I never thought in a million years that I could do it but I'm doing it and I thank all of you for your stories on this board that have given me strength and hope and a glimpse at a happy and safe life. I survived 2 world trade center attacks and it isn't easy but being in a relationship with him is worst than anything that I have ever experienced and I am determined to get my life back no matter what!
So what exactly am I missing? NOTHING!
victim no more
onwithmylife
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victim no more
I just wanted to throw up
I Know breisis
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Oh sweet heart ... really
Thank you Scoop
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Cheers, to the new you.
idealk9NYC
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I Am Humbled desprathousewife
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Just as DHW says you are a