well im back!!! :(
well im back!!! :(
Stupid fool that I am I went back into denial. I let him hoover me. Thought I was in control. Stupid me. I went back. I didn't listen to your warnings and within weeks the mask slipped and of course its all my fault. Kind of back to square one with him but it doesn't hurt me so much after the initial shock I just accept that he's damaged. He's mentally ill he's proved it. Just comes back to my safety though. The threats. The violence. I can handle it when its directed at me but when its directed at my son and the father of my kids, my ex, he's got me. I'm terrified. The police have been involved. He's been in court. It doesn't stop him. I have to live in fear. I feel like my life is over. Not because he's cruelly D&D'd me again, because I left him, but because he threatens to hurt those close to me when he realises he can't hurt me and I stand up to him. Oh god its one thing dealing with an N but when they are a violent sadistic criminal that the police have been wanting to get for years and even the domestic abuse team are scared of communication with me because of him I'm really in trouble. He gets me back in conversation through fear and then he hooks me back with sympathy and I'm ruined again. I want my life back
He is not the first guy to
thankyou
indenial
Indenial
kitty02
in denial,
spinning
spinning
yes, is there anyway to move
I'm so sorry to hear this!