"We expect perfect behavior 100% of the time"
"We expect perfect behavior 100% of the time"
That's what my father said a couple of years ago. Sometimes I feel like I CAN'T tell my parents about mistakes I've made. It's been a decade, and I still haven't told them what I've been telling my fellow forum participants here (thank you for your support, especially you Lisa and Betty!)
My parents got upset because I burnt my hand at work several months ago... and I didn't tell them. I had taken care of it, I was able to work. I've had some minor financial issues, and I didn't tell them for fear of being chewed out. For example, I'll tell them that I interviewed someone for an article, and they'll say "you remembered to thank them, didn't you?" When my parents visited recently, some kids ran into the street, I noted that it was a terrible street with speeders.. and my father said,"You didn't run into those kids, did you?" Putting me on the defensive.
When I first told my parents about my growing feelings for my ex-P, there was the added problem that my mother was raised by Narc parents, so it was very triggering for her. I hadn't intended it. I was in love, I was in denial... and my mother was yelling that I was a psychopath as she ran upstairs. Since it was triggering, I vowed silence on the subject. I told my friends about it instead--and they were the ones who saved my life. After the D&D, the 2 years I spent at home were miserable. My mother and I would be constantly bickering, and my sister would say I was antisocial as if I weren't there.
I feel like my parents don't trust me. I'm afraid that if I tell them about ANY mistakes I've made, I'll be chewed out. It's the catch-22. If I told them about that 4 year Hell, I'm afraid I'll be told it was my fault, how dare I make the mistake of being smitten with a professor. A friend of mine said that I probably put up with my ex-P's verbal abuse because of the way my parents handled my minor mistakes. The constant criticism, the defensiveness. No wonder I was vulnerable...
Anyone here experience the same?
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My parents
""We expect perfect behavior
The old push-pull