wanted a baby

I couldnt if I wanted to, my tubes are tied, he told me to have it reversed, ya right, he is 54 years old, I am 51 what the hell would I want a child for at my age, he said his girlfriend has been trying to get pregnant and wants his baby, his GF is 49 I think, his girlfriend is a grandmother for gods sake, so thats probably another lie, besides I think he got snipped so can you imagine her trying to get pregnant not knowing he got snipped, what a monster. Speaking of pregnant, he told me several times he always wanted to f--k a woman about 8 months pregnant, the big stomach would be a turn on, A TURN ON? Its supposed to be beautiful and a miracle when carrying a child not a sexual turn on not to mention he gives no thought to how uncomfortable it is being 8 months pregnant, its not what I thought of when I was 8 months pregnant I was getting the baby room ready, and resting, and praying my baby would be healthy not think of f---ing. I imagine it is living hell being connected to a N with a child he fathered, the N will have a field day controlling that for 18 years just to make your life miserable and for no other reason. Let me tell you how much mine loved children. On Halloween he said he always wanted to hide behind bushes and throw shit and the children to scare them away, and he wanted a child with me? His GF has two daughters and one grandchild from a previous marriage she has been married three times, mmmmm anyway his GF does alot with her family and her children (that is probably all she has got) and since day one he said he has NEVER NEVER done anything with her family, didnt even go to his GF's daughters wedding or give a gift just made an appearance at the reception, she went to disney world with her daughters and grandchild and he wanted no part of it he said, are you kidding why would I want to go with a bunch of snieviling brat kids with her to disney world, I would rather slam my nuts in a car door, those were his exact words, I thought hey I can slam your nuts in my car door if you like, ha ha. Great father material eh? He never goes to holiday family get togethers either, he always has to work, the bastard probably schedules it so he works. I realize its HER children but if I remarried and my partner had children I would want to be a part of her family and show respect enough that I cared about her family because her family means a great deal to her. One time he told me he didnt speak to her for a week because she had to babysit her grandchild on his day off and it ruined the whole day for him, gee would it ever dawn on him to enjoy a precious baby for a day and share that with her NO because he hates children that is evident. He said he has never even seen the grandchild only maybe once, OH MY GOD I asked him if he ever held her and he said F--k no, I see her kids maybe once a year. Can you imagine what her family must think of him? And she wants to have his baby? What a crock of shit another lie from his lips. Now let me tell you the inquiries my Psychopath asked of MY grown children. You will love this, "so is your daughter a nempho like her mother? Is she fucking anyone? I bet she loves dick like her mother does. I told him dont you ever speak of my daughter to me again he laughed and said I was just kidding, I told him I didnt find the humor in it for your information my daughter has a masters degree in psychology so fucking isnt on the top of her priority as it is in your life she has studied sex addicts like you, he hung up on me. "LOVES DICK LIKE HER MOTHER DOES"? Actually I think you like dicks more than I do if the truth be known you bisexual freak. Ya NanC mine was a monster and I am so glad the nightmare is over. You would think knowing mine was so sick that my recovery would be a breeze but for some reason it doesnt work that way, we always go back to the con, fraud and betrayal of being swindled into something beyond what we ever imagined them to be. I know I am leaving behind a man that was highly disturbed but its also the way he left me, disturbed and mentally injured. I have to erase all this sick shit he inflicted on me. Keep your baby girl away from that monster and be glad he doesnt have time to see her, hope that continues through out her childhood. I know its sad because it is her father but one day I hope you find a wonderful healthy man to be her strong influence in her life.

I hate it that my exN is the father of my 2 children. My big anxiety is that I will always have him in my life.......... quick get the bucket. He also uses them to get at me. They're 4 and 6 now and he tells them I punched him and kicked him. They know it's not true and saw him assault me and go off in an ambulance. They have spent the weekend at his new girlfriend's house, when they get back in couple of hours I'll have to endure the latest shit that has gone on. I find that difficult I don't comment about him though.

Mine never wanted a baby. HE was the baby. He hated babies getting attention.