Victim Hoovering vs. N Hoovering
Victim Hoovering vs. N Hoovering
I'm reading so many posts about how N's hoover after several weeks or months of NC. I've experienced it first hand...the call or text comes out of nowhere and they act as if nothing ever happened.
In my situation, he's now with someone else. I didn't know for the longest so when he ceased contacting me, after a few months, I would make the contact. I did this a number of times and he'd actually return and continue to make promises and see me. It was many months later that he came clean about the OW.
Maybe this is a good example of inverted Narc behavior, on my part. I was the classic relapser living in lala land, hoping he had changed. Each time I had contact, the covert abuse got worse. They are so weak...when they have supply they have no quams about dogging us but, when supply is low, their act changes. That's why they usually keep more than one source in the picture.
I saw myself in so many of the posts that talked about hoovering...I hoovered just like the Narc, even though I am not one. It's scary how easy it is to take on N behaviors and totally lose every ounce of self respect. I think the reason is because I blame myself...if only this and if only that. Sometimes I think I am insane and I'll never come out of it...afterall, he's happy with his new source and I'm suffering. Today I'm tired and lonely and that is a dangerous combo.
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That feeling of being Used
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