A trying but triumphant day
A trying but triumphant day
After 4 days of paralysis, here's what I did for me to start healing TODAY. It was really hard and I cried all day, but I did it!
Blocked asshat
Got in to see my OB/GYN who checked for all STDs under the sun that I may have gotten from nasty asshat
Got in to see a great therapist to deal with contempt I have for asshat (I can't seem to get past the fact that he will never feel as badly as he makes others feel. I want him to suffer. Does anyone else struggle with this? Where is the karma, the justice?) We're also working on my relationship with my husband and my shame and self-loathing for my own stupidity, and the utter disregard I showed for my husband, my vows, asshat's innocent wife and child that will surely endure much more abuse from him than I can even imagine, and of course, myself. Long road ahead here...
It was really weird, I called my OB/GYN at 10:30 am and his nurse said, we just had a cancellation, can you make it here by 11:00? And I could. Then I got back to the office and called the therapist and the admin said, we just had a cancellation, can you make it here by 1:00? And I could. Amazing good luck and a sign that my healing was meant to start today with no looking back.
I feel a little silly telling my tale of woe when so many others here have endured worse and for much longer than I. But I'm grateful for having found the site and to all of you for listening, and sharing your strength, resilience, and wisdom. It helped me find mine too.
xoxo
Lynn
AN AMAZING POST AND VERY
Aqua, this is fantastic...
spinning
EXCELLENT!!!!!! I couldnt be
Blocking him is the hardest
Lynn, you don't know how
LOL...My OB/GYN is like a
Hey aqua...good for you. I
Karma
Yay for you!