Trying to make a decision: need advice

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#1 Apr 19 - 9AM
ZanShin
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Trying to make a decision: need advice

So, I currently live an hour's drive from where I do 80% of my work. I moved here in part to be closer to my soon to be exN, when things were 'good.' I also moved here because I wanted to live in a city (where I work: suburban/rural) and I do a fair amount of work here as well. However, my dearest friends are back in the suburban/rural town. Also important to note: my exN is moving just two blocks away from my condo in a week. Originally, we had been planning to live together; ever since I agreed to do this, he has been back and forth about whether he wants to live with me. This is what FINALLY triggered my wake up and has started me planning my exit. I am on LC now, trying not to give him any indication that I am about to disappear (go completely NC) as I know he will do a massive hoover and I want to be miles away from him when this goes down. I don't trust myself to be around him, as I have proven to be too easily swayed by him.

I feel the CD clearing daily, as I have had little interaction and have started working through Lisa's book and steps. However, as recently as last night he texted "are you moving in with us?" Seeing that he signed the lease this week and never told me when and where he was doing it, I replied "I believe you made that decision for me." His response: "I have. You are moving in with us." Wow.

MY QUESTION: do I move back to the suburban/rural town? Benefits: no more two hour daily commute; I"m close to my dearest friends (although they all leave town in the summer); I will save money; it will be very peaceful...and I could use some peace and quiet after the chaos and drama of the last two years; I will have put a fair number of miles between myself and N which will protect me from his immediate influence; I won't have to be always looking over my shoulder wondering if he is near or having someone follow me; I won't have to see all the many places we went together.

Downside: I am PISSED that I have to give up living in the city I LOVE because of him; there is not much to do in the little town and I am an active single girl (yay!) who loves to go to museums, concerts, restaurants, etc.; I'm worried about the loneliness of the summer and vacation times when none of my friends are in town and there is NOTHING to do there; by moving, I feel like I am letting him win somehow...and I hate to think that I am not strong enough to live in the same city as he--I could always move deeper into my neighborhood or just a mile away to an equally cool neighborhood.

I'd love some input. Complete NC is going into effect as soon as these arrangements are made, so that is a given.

Apr 21 - 5PM
ZanShin
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Thanks!!

Apr 22 - 2AM (Reply to #13)
Janie53
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ZanShin

Apr 22 - 12AM (Reply to #12)
Journey
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I think you are making a very

Journey on...

Apr 19 - 1PM
brinamarie
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I had the same type of

Apr 19 - 12PM
Deidre99
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I wouldn't move out of a city

Apr 22 - 1AM (Reply to #6)
Brave
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I actually agree with Deidre,

Apr 22 - 10AM (Reply to #7)
Journey
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Hi Brave, I would like to

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Apr 23 - 5PM (Reply to #9)
Janie53
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Journey

Apr 22 - 12PM (Reply to #8)
Brave
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Yes I understand what you are

Apr 19 - 10AM
Janie53
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Vlnvlaprof

Apr 19 - 10AM
spinning
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V, I say

spinning

Apr 19 - 10AM (Reply to #3)
ItsFinallytime
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Agree with Spinning. MOVE.

Apr 19 - 10AM (Reply to #2)
Alissa
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Agree with Spinning! Move!!