Trying to get through the fog

Just trying to get some thoughts down while they are fresh in my head. Tomorrow will be 1 week NC and my mind is in a fog. I'm having trouble thinking about and verbalizing the events of my life with this man and I don't want to lose this thought. I realized, for as long as I can remember he has been taking credit for my achievements. Always letting me know that I couldn't have gotten where I am without him that he was so proud of himself for being able to get me where I am today. I never went to college but I always had a job. I worked myself up from almost making minimum wage to having a job where I could take care of myself if I had to. For a long time I think I believed him. He used to tell me that he did this for his ex-wife too, that her father had ruined her and he built her up from being nothing. But not once did I ever hear him say that "I" worked hard to get where I am. I'm so mad at myself for letting him take over my life, I stayed way too long and I believed for way too long that he was my saviour. He would always tell me I would never find anyone else that could take care of me the way he could. Has anyone else had this happen too?