Trying to cope

Yesterday was a very bad day for me, emotionally and every other way. The weekend was one of the worse one I have spent in quite awhile, any of the people here that have read my post about when your soulmate becomes your worst nightmare, will understand a little of my situation.

I finally had all I could take, and my bags were still packed from several weeks ago, when he promised me the money to leave and go back home to my family....as you can see that never happened. I got my vehicle loaded up, and everything was there except me and my pocketbook. As I was putting on my boots, he came in the kitchen and told me I wasnt going anywhere. I told him yes I was, I was done and I was gone. I picked up my pocketbook off of table, got the door open, and that was about the extent of my escape. I got half way out the door, before he grabbed me and tried pulling me back inside. I was clinging to the door frame, and we fought like that for maybe 5 minutes because he finally got me dragged back inside.

Once there he took my cell phone, and the cordless phone, also the keys to my car. I told him I was going to call the police, and just laughed in my face....told me to try it. I went into the spare bedroom and stayed awhile...but then he kept coming in there telling me how sorry he was, asking me to forgive him...but never once in that did he give me back the phones or my keys. I had to move back and sit in living room with him, to keep him quiet, and im sure so he would know my every moment.

When bedtime came, I went to bed in the spare room, but that didnt last long. He came in and told me to come to the other bedroom...to keep down another fight, I did go then I had to listen to him half the night, telling me how much he loved me. HAHA he never tells me that, but last night I probably heard it
30 times. Course he also had to hug me half the night.

My back is so sore today, if hurts to do much of anything. So im back to biding my time, trying to appease him until I can get the courage up to leave again,once i get my keys back.

I know all I can do here, is get some of my excess emotions out a place to vent. Thanks for listening