Truth hurts, truth is painful…

I knew better yet I allowed the N to speak to me as he picked up the kids.

He begged me to speak to him and I allowed him to as the kids loaded up into the car.

He begged, he apologized; he gave me promises and etc. He begged me to drop the divorce and I replied with “ Call the OW and let me speak to her” His face said it all. He walked away. He quickly turns around and asked…

“What’s in it for me?”

20+ years, five kids (two from his previous marriage THAT I RAISED), his backbone to fixing all his problems. He’s PUSSY WHIPPED. Lol yet I’m feeling …hell I don’t know what I’m feeling. sniff, sniff I know my insides melted.

It hurts b/c I saw him valued her more than his family and me.
(Correction: his dick spoke for him as we are all objects.)
It hurts b/c it was all about “him” Another selfish move on his behalf.

I’m TOTALLY finished with him! I know what to expect! I know who he is!

Why does it hurt so bad when I already knew the truth? He didn’t say anything that I didn’t already know. He didn’t act any different than what I expected. What gives?

Contact = Pain
Low Contact = Pain
His Presence = Pain

Maybe I'm just PISSED that he tried to rear me in with lies and promises while he insulting my intelligence. Again, What gives?

L2A