With true NC, the healing process accelerates

I think it's been about 2 weeks true NC, I'm not really counting anymore. Having no Facebook has been very helpful with my resolve. I've been so productive, cleaning and minimising the house, selling stuff on eBay, sledgehammering old brick walls and filling a whole skip full of rubble..... I am even cleaning out the garage, a disaster area for years!

If I was angry it would be very therapeutic, but I'm not anymore. When I do regard him, it's as a separate species of animal, with scales, a reptile. Although I saw a little skink on the bricks I was throwing away the other day, and I thought, "even he is cuter than that reptile I was once involved with!"

Even better, my dreams are delivering me bars of beautiful music, which I scramble to write down as I wake up. Instead of my dreams leaking pus after a boil has burst (the N), the muse is back. I am hoping she sticks around.

I never thought I'd ever get to this point. Thank you for supporting me during the shakedown from Hell.