Today is going to be rough...

It's been 4 days since I sent him an email telling him that I was tired of the way he was treating me, and when he can treat me with respect and courtesy, he knows where to find me. Of course I haven't heard an answer, nor do I expect to anytime soon. I did it on purpose, to get some time for ME to start thinking clearly again.

But, I've noticed in the past and I'm sure he has as well, that 4 or 5 days is usually when I crack...and sadly, I've already considered it twice this morning, sending him an email telling him that I wish he would do the right thing and be nice to me. Thinking that if I could think of the PERFECT words, he would feel bad and write me and apologize.

Fortunately, I found this site and I'm quickly dispelling THAT illusion. What he'll really do is see the sender name, smile triumphantly to himself because he won yet again, read the email, roll his eyes, then delete it and continue not speaking to me for a while as punishment for having the gall to demand respect.

So, when I get home from work, I'll probably be spending a LOT of time here this evening, trying to draw the strength not to write. If I can make it to the one week mark, I'll be better...by then I'll have more of an attitude of, "I've come this far, why blow it now?"

Thanks for being here, guys. I hope everyone has a peaceful day, talk to you later. 8)