tired of being afraid.....

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#1 Mar 31 - 9AM

Anonymous (not verified)

tired of being afraid.....

he's out there...angry...things haven't worked out the way he planned.....his plan was to detroy me and my little family...and he would stroll away...and start up again somewhere else...with someone else....and have another fortune to throw away....

but it hasn't happened...he loved his little 'vacations into filth and degrredation'...but he hasn't been able to come back from this last one...nowhere to come back to....he sought out the lowest of the low...the dregs of humanity...he enjoyed having gutter crawling drunks and drug addicts and criminals as playmates...but he's not liking have to live among them...

he's being evicted from his cockroach hole...he apparently has no car...no way to deliver pizza...no transportation to seek out new victims...he's stuck...and he's angry...and it's all my fault....

i don't think he'd given us much thought for awhile...he's had booze..and drugs..and a place to sleep...and the satisfaction of knowing he destroyed my life...i had it coming..but he of course did not...

i know he runs with scum and skank...i know he hates us...he wants us dead....and i know he can find us...once he starts thinking about it,it won't take long...where could i have gone with all the dogs and cats and no money...
all he'll have to do is access tax records...get the addresses of everything my friend owns....and start cruising...and it scares me..he's a master at getting others to do his dirty work...

i haven't been further than the store down the street in days...i keep my car covered with a plastic tarp...the last two nights i've laid awake...when i hear a car slow down in front of the house i get up and look out the window..today i have to go out..have to...have to pick up a four dollar prescription for one of my cats...one of my dogs is getting old and has seizures...he's having them this morning....he goes into a blind panic when he has them..i know that feeling...

he hasn't sent me anymore emails...i find no comfort in that...maybe it's because he knows where i am...i've lived in constant fear for so long i can't remember anything else...i'm tired of being afraid...i'm just tired......

#2 Apr 1 - 12AM

narcnarcwhosthere (not verified)

thanks for caring about me....

it means a lot to me.... an RO would be like waving a red hanky in the face of a psychotic bull....i mean, back when we were still living together...if i bought something for the dogs..like a some string cheese or somethin' and told him to keep his hands off it...the bastard would eat it for spite..he lives to DEFY.... i had a brief encounter with him a few weeks ago in a parking lot...and he was bat shit crazy....he looked rabid...he is rabid..

#3 Apr 1 - 12AM

narcnarcwhosthere (not verified)

armed and highly dangerous, TexN....

yes..i've leveled the playing field for the final slap down.....i have a gun..but he doesn't know it...i want it to be a little surprise...'aim to shoot, shoot to kill' is my new mantra... for YEARS that bastard has made my life a living Hell...the whole time accusing me of stalking HIM...accusing me of wanting to kill HIM....... and now it's become a self fulfilling prophecy.... i haven't heard anything from him since his last creepy email...and i don't want to block them because they give me some insight into just how off his rocker he is... i'm exhausted from being on red alert 24/7...worn slick with his bullshit...so yeah...if he comes near me...he's in for a big surprise...

#4 Mar 31 - 9PM

TexN (not verified)

Narcnarc

Its almost as if he still has you as a prisoner! Do you have a gun to protect yourself? I hope that you do! I have no doubt that you'd use it if he showed up...remember, one shot! Ok, maybe three! But don't leave him looking like swiss cheese cos then...oh hell no, you fear for your life! You want to make sure he's dead! After everything he has put you through, he deserves every last bullet!

#5 Mar 31 - 9PM

neveragain5

Read Your Stories

and it is UNBELIEVABLE what you have been through! I am so sorry that this happened to you! Are your dog and cat okay?

#6 Mar 31 - 9PM

janetc

narcnarc

I am sooo sorry for this. I have been through a lot but mine left to another state, so at least for now I do not have to worry about my physical safety. I am praying for you and for a way out for you. Wish I had a big yard and a place for you to stay with me! Just hang in there and know you have a lot of people on here who care about you!

Janet

#7 Mar 31 - 10AM

narcnarcwhosthere (not verified)

stacked deck........

it is stacked in their favor...that's because it's people just like them that make and stack the deck a lot of the time... i've known for a loooooong time that i'm on my own here...learned it the hard way.... i saw him back in february...he saw me in THE car and followed me....he was delivering pizza...he pulled up beside me and started a rant about how badly he was living while i was 'doing alright' and 'drving a brand new mercedes'...the damn car is 10 years old and has over 170,000 miles on it!.he looked...well...crazy... this has happened before, but never to this degree...he runs off from the things he's done..builds himself his own little reality...and when the real world starts to leak in....when cold hard truth stares him in the face..he goes bonkers.... i've exhausted every angle over the years...looked into having him committed...everything... about all i can do now is hold my breath and wait for the other shoe to drop...

#8 Mar 31 - 9AM

narcnarcwhosthere (not verified)

RO...

no..a restraining order would just enrage the defiant psychopath...and would just cause him to go to plan B and get someone else to do his dirty work for him....if i'm going to be stalked...i prefer it to be a known enemy rather than an unknown one.... last summer....he enlisted some of the skanks he runs with to go into my former neighborhood and break into the garages, motorhomes and cars of every neighbor who had every helped me in any way...seven total...there had never been a single robbery in that neighborhood..NEVER..then seven in one night...and everyone targeted was someone i knew who had been kind to me and my pets.... everyone knew it was him..but couldn't prove it... that's how he operates... he's a weasel.....

#9 Mar 31 - 9AM (Reply to #4)

dysenchanted

Just...S**t

I wish I could make it better..for all of us. The deck really does seem to be stacked in their favor.

#10 Mar 31 - 9AM

dysenchanted

narcnarc

I hear you. I'm so sorry.Do you have a RO on him? (((((((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))))))))))))

#11 Mar 31 - 2PM (Reply to #2)

Barbara (not verified)

R.O. in Missouri

in NarcNarc's state - the R.O. states YOUR ADDRESS!! it would be like giving him a roadmap! ~~~~~~~~~ The world is a dangerous place, not only because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing. - Albert Einstein Visit My Info. Website for Abuse Victims

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