This time of night is hard
This time of night is hard
Mainly because I've had a wine by now (have one when I'm making dinner).
I also just walked up to the loo (thanks wine), and my daughter is in the bath. She is using a bubble bath that reminds me of the ex. A piney kind of scent. It just set me off again.
It's two weeks tomorrow, this is the longest we've ever not spoken and I DESPERATELY want to email him. I can't tell you how hard it is.
The two things stopping me (you may notice this changes on a daily basis) are:
He told me he can't give me what I want (he doesn't even freaking know what I want, which is only basic communication, not hot and cold)
He told me to not contact him
I strongly suspect if I did contact him, he'd be chatty & friendly (he certainly wanted to engage in conversation when we saw each other last week), but I am holding out because after being told (paraphrasing here) that he isn't willing to give me what I need and to go away, my contacting him is like a puppy who's been kicked coming back for more. It would be humiliating, embarrassing & would show him how little I respect myself.
But I still want to do it :(
I'm sorry for constantly ranting.
Spinning
sorry guys
'Btw, my exN always said he
"That's the annoying thing,
Striped
Hi Striped, it's hard with so
Journey on...
Exactly Journey
Glad you made it through the night
inteligence vs emotion
Ziggy
poor choices have been established
I think it was Henry Ford who
spinning
Spinning
And as a forty yr old.. One
boy oh boy, the Mighty Huntress, when
spinning
I am only two months LC and 5
Oh striped
Thank you. I managed to avoid
Well done striped
Do you ever feel embarrassed
No contact until September
Embarrassed, humiliated, stupid