They are evil
They are evil
Make a long story, short. I joined a few different exercise websites, over the past two years. On and off them. Two, he was a part of, and he was banned. Shocking. But, one in particular, I ended up making a close friendship...well, e-friendship with a woman online there.
I shared a lot of info. Over time, not right away. She lived about two hours away, or so I thought. We had talked about meeting recently.
We finally come to decide to exchange phone numbers, and she sends me my ex N's number. I was confused. I didn't put it together, and honestly, I didn't remember his number off the bat, but remember the area code. He lives up north, I'm in the south. Thank God we had a long distance relationship, because this fucking psycho would have stalked me no doubt.
Anyways. I wrote back...'who are you? this is my ex's number.' I thought for a moment that he had a woman doing this for him? It didn't make any sense.
And 'she' replied...'I am your ex.' Then, he called me a few choice words and said how he laughed his ass off at how much I shared with a total stranger on the internet.
It took everything in me not to reply, but honestly? I was in shock. I then asked about the website check earlier (on here), because I thought he had asked me to be blocked. I know, absolutely crazy thinking. When you start even thinking about narcville again, you start thinking crazy. I have not come unglued in a very long time, everyone. VERY LONG TIME. I consider myself close to healed. I don't think about him, even, except to share here, really.
My anger and shock comes in that I shared a lot of personal stuff with this 'woman.' He had to have gotten a good laugh. :(
I disabled my account on the website, and the others I belonged to as well, because stupid me, I used the name Deidre on all these accounts. Maybe I am stupid.
So this asshole went looking for me? I am trying to figure out how he found me there, and I'm thinking that someone told him. A mutual friend. From a while back, whom had shown me some of these sites. He knew I used Deidre a lot for other accounts.
Is he this bored? Is he this insane? I don't know. I know what evil looks like, everyone. I really do. This man is EVIL. He is a narcissist/psychopath...but he is bona fide evil. Only an evil man would do this to me.
He has nothing to gain. Some hoovers, at least the guy is going for sex...or something that makes sense, on some level...even on a narcissist level. But, to do this? To just fuck with me? Two years later? It is just mind boggling.
I threw up twice today over this. :( I have not been this upset in a long time. I am feeling a little better, now. I just wish this man would go away. I don't wish him any harm...but, I can't help but have those feelings of vengeance coming over me. I will not act on them, no worries. lol But, I have not even thought like this in a very very long time.
And remember I changed my number a long time ago after he and I split? Well, now he has the new one. So, there you go. Now I have to change it again. I am thinking this was his plot all along as ridiculous as it all seems. It is so sickening. I'm literally sick today over this.
I want a normal life. I didn't do anything to bring this on. Whenever you think you have never seen evil, think back to your ex narcs, everyone. THEY ARE EVIL. Some more than others, but evil exists. Believe it. And vomiting and shaking is what happens in the presence of it. These people don't have that much power. But, the devil does, if you believe in heaven and hell. And he is inside these people. And that is why I vomited today.
I must sound crazy, but I believe this to be true! They are fucking evil!
Thanks for listening.