Terrified of Men
Terrified of Men
Apologies to the men on here! I don't mean you! :) Nor do I mean the wonderful men who are my friends and relatives.
I'm talking about the ones who end up taking me out. I've dated some great guys who broke things off for one reason or another (usually they didn't want a relationship or went back to an old girlfriend).
However, I've had such a run of bad luck over the past few years that even thinking about dating a guy terrifies me. I was asked on a date recently, agreed to go, then when the ball was put back in my court to call the guy, well. . . I haven't been able to bring myself to do so.
Let's work backwards for a brief history. Most recently was CharlieSheenWinning, narc extraordinaire. On and off with him for years as he didn't want a relationship and I did. Finally broke it off with him just over 3 months ago because he said he was still not over an old girlfriend who dumped him 2 yrs. ago. He met up with a woman he'd only met once before the day after I broke things off. He married her 3 weeks later. Cue major CD and crying continuously for me while he struts around town happy and in love. (And drunk -- I've heard they drink all the time.)
Before him there was Lotso, named after the bear in Toy Story 3 because he seemed nice but was evil. Lotso was the model town citizen, helped the veterans, loved by all. Nice guy. Started to date him -- found he was into porn and he belittled me for my lack of oral sex ability. Broke up with me via email when I called him "boyfriend" after 2 1/2 months of dating. Said he was never my boyfriend -- I had gotten the wrong idea.
Before that was The Eunuch -- named because he never had the balls to actually break up with me. Just stopped returning my calls and emails after 2 months of dating. We had been friends for years. He'd already pulled the never-calling-me-back routine 2 years prior when I dated him. I still took him back like an idiot and let him do it to me a second time.
Before *that* there was the Stalker who, after 3 weeks wanted to be together constantly. Wouldn't listen when I said I needed to slow things down. Badgered me via phone, email, and chased down my friends until I had to threaten police action and run to my brother's house because I was afraid he'd show up on my steps yelling, "STELLA! STELLA!" like in Streetcar Named Desire.
It's been a harrowing ride.
Does anyone else have a history that causes them to be terrified of what may come next? Is it possible to get over that? I can't take even one more bad date, much less another relationship. I've reached the end of my rope.
Lobo555....it will get better...it is possible
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