Terrible regression

Made a terrible decision . He called last night and I took the call, he told me he loves me and wants to work thru it with a therapist. Says he can't live without me wants me in his life and misses me horribly ....,
I cried he cried we ended the conversation me hopeful thus would work out. WTf! Am I crazy?!
Woke up this morning he called and said I'm very busy thus weekend and I'm sorry I contacted you again , I don't want to end this but I don't think we can see each other until we see a therapist!!!!
I'm like how can we work this out if we don't go this together ..( again stupid )...
He says I'm going away on business next week and we will schedule an app in the next couple weeks and see someone, until then we can't see one another .. Huh???

I was devestated all over again !!!!!! I made a confession to him which I haven't even shared here but when he dumped me last week I made a match com profile for one day and some man wrote me who apparently recognized me thru xn.. U face him my number and we met for a drink I quickly realized how stupid it was but this guy knows xn ? I figured or would get back to him so I to him what I did And he freaked on me! I to him I did it put if anger and confusion but since then resigned the account and deleted it but this jerk has my number .

Anyway he hung up on me and told me to never call him. Stupid me feels confused all over again and I feel like whatever useless attempt to make it work I messed it up.

I need help