Tap Dancing in a Minefield

Okay, so it's been a year and 3 months since I broke things off with CharlieSheenWinning. So, what am I doing this sunny Sunday morning? I'm panicking because he's moved back to town recently. I know at some point, based in *his* past behavior and based on what I've read here, that there will be hoovering.

I just can't deal. This town is the size of my thumbnail, so I'll run into him eventually. He's inescapable. I feel like a trapped animal.

All I want is to stay off his radar and to not have to think about him. But everyone talks about him all the time. I'm not kidding. He's like a fucking rock star -- or the real Charlie Sheen -- people are endlessly fascinated by his life and lifestyle. Without going into detail, it is pretty glamorous.

I've never had this kind of reaction to an ex before except with my ex-husband (who, it turns out, was severely mentally ill). I've always been able to bounce back and, in most cases, remain friends with my exes.

They say that which doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Well, I'm having a weak moment. Today I don't feel stronger for having had my experiences, I feel broken by them.