struggling
struggling
I know it's normal to feel this bad, but it doesn't make it any easier. I go from feeling a little better, relieved that I've dodged this evil bullet, to the fact that I can't erase the last 2 years of feeling and believing he loved me. He became such a big part of my daily life...texts to say I love you, calls throughout the day to check in...now my phone hardly rings and I find myself dragging through each day, not eating, not sleeping...playing the last conversation over in my mind where he looked at me squarely and coldly in the eye and said, "I'm not in love with you anymore and not sure if I ever was." This felt like being kicked in the gut, hard. He has made no contact (neither have I, whew!) and I feel so pathetic that it was so easy for him to walk away while I am walking through my life like a zombie. I have no desire to get back with him, especially after reading all the lit on these freaks...and he is definitely one of them...but my self esteem is so low...he told me that I needed to work on myself and love myself..and this was one of the reasons he gave for leaving... I know these things are true..I do need to love myself more, but it's hard to do it when someone rejects you like this. I am also scared to find out that he has an OW. He does not seem the type...he has gone long periods without a woman (years, and this includes hook ups according to his friends), and I don't see him as a player...if he has D&D me, which I truly feel he has, should I almost expect him to have an OW, brace for it, or are there other kinds of supply...he is alone a lot, goes fishing with friends, exercises his dog, and has beers with friends at local bar some afternoons...other than that pretty low key..any insight to any of the above is greatly appreciated...I'm really struggling. Thanks
I'm so sorry you are going
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Narcd, the struggle sucks...
spinning
Thanks Spinning!
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Smoke and mirrors...wow ..you