STOP THE RIDE, I WANNA GET OFF!!!!

Haven't talked to him since March 13 (phone, final goodbye after a hoover attempt the week prior). He already by then had his relationship with the OW started. As of this morning I was feeling like I was finally letting go, in fact peacefully letting go of anybody, including a friend who has been pulling away since a recent disagreement. I was ready to start today at peace with letting go of everybody and everything and forgiving myself for all my mistakes.

I think I was also of the mindset that he is due to D&D the OW since she made it obvious that she is very eager and willing to chase him around and he likes to do the chasing, so shouldn't he be getting bored?

THen I see that she took a photo of his buddy at his house at midnight and put it on FB via mobile (I have the buddy, but not him, on my fb). Total set back. Then on my way home from work today, I go by his house (not stalking, he lives in my area on a main drag a few streets over from me) and there they are, her in her cute little sun dress, standing outside enjoying the sunshine..of course that's when he had to look up and see me see them...how nice, after last night's get-together, she spent the day with him in the yard looking all comfortable as if she keeps clothes there or maybe MOVED IN!!!

A total set back from what I was feeling this morning...being wrong about the D&D that should be starting...dammit!!! He did textbook passive narc stuff to me but now I'm questioning if maybe it was just ME and the OW is somehow special to get away with chasing him around...stuff that would have got me the ST once I thought I felt comfortable enough to let my guard down with him...before that it was 6 months of me letting him do the chasing and everything turning out fine until I felt comfortable, and he bought his house and his roommates moved in...

Why is the NC part such a roller coaster too?? After this long being apart from anyone else, I'm good and over it...why does it still bother me?????