soulmates
soulmates
I have been reading a lot lately, almost obsessively. And I came across an article about borderlines and narcs, how they feel like soulmates. And then I read about BPD, and I think.I have this. I had all 9.traits. And I think it's what kept me there, abandonment issues, severely. I want to get help to see if I have this and can fix it,or at least minimize the damage. Now I am confused and not angry, cuz I am thinking we both are sick. Now I don't even know if I loved him. Its just so dysfunctional. I remember in the beginning, I was stubborn and had a wall of protection from being close to anyone. He got mad, and required me to drop my wall. ..or he would leave. He threatened to leave. So. I dropped my wall in fear. And then the drama unfolded. This sick dance. I just want to.help myself,cuz he will never seek help. Its sad. I knew my father had his illness, and staying with him was reliving my childhood trauma. I feel stunned by these thoughts, and totally sad. Byt, at least I know.why I self destruct without him. I don't know what to do in the meantime. I keep wanting to build that wall again, to protect myself again, but is that even healthy? Any thoughts are appreciate it!
thank you thank you
good for you...
soulmates
went thru the "maybe I AM THE
that 'soulmate" line
"soulmate"
soulmate
Apologizing..,
blame
thinking we're the narcs