Sorry to post so much but

Hey everyone I'm really sorry I'm posting so much. This is just the perfect site to vent so I don't feel so alone.. Uhm a question does anyone else feel that part of you is done but the other part still craves him? How do we combat these feelings and find a balance within ourselves and our life..I'm taking anti anxiety medicine everyday because I've been getting anxious these last few days and having urges...anyone have the same feelings?