someone slap me!

Ok I have taken a great leap backward.

HE has just moved into a house with his OW. They are posting happy things on twitter (I know I should not look)

My daughter has been there a few tines so its hard to try not to think about it. I don't even want him, I know he does not love me. I have moved on.....BUT...

what if they last and it was me who made him unhappy? I cant stop thinking about how happy she must be right now, how they have the life we used to share. Happy, romantic times, in their new home, looking forward to christmas. He probably thinks how much more easy-going she is as they have no money stress, YET, or child stress, YET!! Probably tells her how glad he is to be rid of me and my complaining and dragging him down. She must feel special and look down on me as the idiot who lost him!!!

I know I am being crazy but a part of me thinks....maybe it will work for them. I want them to fail so I can say ' see? it wasn't me....he is a selfish narc who loves no-one'

Im even dreaming about them!!!! I so thought I had moved forward....clearly not!!

Please someone......verbally slap me!!!

Thanks ;)

xx