Some insight

I have a new therapist who when I told my story she said that my N was a predator. I never thought about it that way, I thought disordered, which is easy in magical thinking to feel bad and feel that our goodness could help change them. But predator, now that has changed my way of thinking. I think of the show Chris Hansen hosted To Catch a Predator and was so disgusted by the people he exposed. Did you want to have dinner let alone spend the night with any one of those guys? This slight change of thought has helped me to know I saved my life from emotional ruin. I will figure out why I went down that road but more importantly will never let anyone cross my boundaries or treat me so poorly again. We all deserve so much better! In this new light, I can see hope and peace. I hope this helps anyone out there who is struggling.

pred•a•tor n.
1. An organism that lives by preying on other organisms.
2. One that victimizes, plunders, or destroys, especially for one's own gain.

dis•or•dered adj.
1. Being in a condition of confusion or disarray.
2. Physically or mentally ill.