So tired of being tired....
So tired of being tired....
Did any of you suffer from extreme insomnia at the beginning? When does the sleeplessness begin to subside? I have been NC since the last D&D just over two weeks ago. I wake up every single night, and he's my first thought. At first, in my grogginess, I forget why I am awake. Then that terrible, sudden PANG of hurt reminds me. I start thinking back to the good times, then the OW he flaunted on FB, then all of the clues I missed, the mean texts, the way he started to withdraw his attention from me, the fear of disease, the missing him, the wishing I never got involved, the 'what the hell was I thinking?'... "Will I ever get my old life back?"
I just want to sleep soundly one night. I can just see him snoring away next to his wife, having peaceful dreams of the next day's plans. He'll tell her he's at work, but I -- and many others -- know better. He's a serpant - always out and about getting his fill. Why isn't his wife and the OW figuring this out? Why am I the only fool in pain? In a sense, I believe it's my Karma. Not saying I don't deserve it. Just saying I hope it ends soon....
I remember always wanting to
Agreed, the insomnia was
Thank you for the kind words.
Yes
So true Jax.