In so much pain...again....
In so much pain...again....
Ahhhh. I am about to f'ing crack.
After this past weekend spending all this time together, him getting me over to his apt. 1.5 hours away, telling me how much he loves me/ misses me, how he wants to be with me, having sex...now he thinks it just doesn't feel right. He tells me he love me but just doesn't know.
I've been waiting for him for over a year since the last time he broke up with me. I have tried to go NC, but I either cave or he does and we sleep with each other. He has had other short term GFs this last year, and here I am waiting in the sidelines.
I beat myself, I think I am crazy, over emotional, every therapist I go to see thinks I need to work on myself, and maybe he is worth another chance.
I went NC..I was doing so well, and now I feel used, I feel so so so stupid. I feel suicidal, I feel ugly. Both my roommates use to be single with me and now they are both dating, no one wants to date me.
I feel like I called him too much these past few days, I pushed him away. He just tells me it doesn't feel right. I HATE MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. I don't know why I can't find someone else to date me. No one takes interest in me. He is the only guy that has found me to be beautiful. I can't tkae this pain anymore. I can't.
Sarah
You are right, I know. I get
Sarah
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