so long as a victim
so long as a victim
I know its been awhile since I've posted. I need to be honest and give an update on my status. I keep close to this site and still read and there are a lot of new people who probably don't know my story but for those of you who do, I want to say thank you for everything. You girls were there for me in my darkest hour. 6 months ago I was a complete mess. My life was turned inside out and I had nowhere to turn. Over the past 6 months I have grown and come to know and love myself more than ever. It was mostly because of this site and all of the wonderful people who have found their way here. Our hearts were broken but we had each other and you girls gave me a strength that I never thought I had. The biggest thing I will take from this is the friendships I have made. Everyone here is beautiful and strong and deserves the best that life has to offer.
Ok, here's the hard part. With all that being said, I went back to him. I know you are all going to tell me it was a bad move and I guess the truth is only time will tell. I will say this though. When he looks at me there is something different in his eyes. There is a different tone in his voice when he speaks to me. I shared this site with him and told him about how you all have helped me. He knows the pain I felt and I see it in his eyes that he won't do it to me again. For those that know me the first question you are going to ask is he still married. The answer is yes. It eats at me but we only just started back up about 6 weeks ago and - don't expect a whole bunch right now. I have to get my life in order before I could be with him anyway. I like to think we are both working on our situations so we can be together in the future.
The truth is I don't know what is going to happen. I am more scared than anything. I'm scared to give him my heart again and look like a fool. I am scared to have to take meds to be normal again. I am scared to have to look at him with hatred in my eyes again. But this is a chance I am willing to take. He is 100 percent worth it. I am scared you girls will hate me for making this decision and scared you won't be there when he hurts me again. This is what I have to do for now. I haven't felt this alive ever before. I know he is all I will ever need and I feel like he won't let me down again.
I still want to be here to help and support everyone here and I hope you will still have me. And I hope you will all support me in my happiness as you have in my sadness.
Hugs and kisses
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EX
No Joke Hunter. Hope she has
Well hey...all the best! Hope
Exhausted
Be careful about giving your heart