A simple question put me in a downward spiral

Today I had a friend ask me what it is that I enjoy doing and that question alone hit me hard in the stomach.. Do u know I couldn't even answer it.. I really couldn't .. Before him I could tell u all the things I loved doing and today I sat and honestly couldn't answer..it has made me feel so sad so lost ..I hate what I've allowed to become of me..I really feel like I am in the depths of hell. I feel like this is all caving in on me and I don't know what to do.. I haven't talked to him and I don't want to I just realize I don't even know me anymore.. I'm sorry I'm so whiney these past couple of days I'm just so far down ..I hate that I ever allowed him into my life an hate what I allowed him to do and I don't know what to do I really am at a loss here.. He use to always say that I FEEL to much and today I wish I couldn't FEEL at all..