Shock

Nc is bringning me to a place of clarity. I am seeing lie upon lie upon lie. I have had a crazy understanding today and wanted to get some feedback from others. Rather early on, n and I were having a marathon sex session. As soon as we were done, he stood up and told me he wasn't feelin well and needed to go to the emergency room . (he has an autoimmune disorder). We were about 3 miles away from the closest hospital and I asked if I could take him. He refused and said it was too great of a risk because we could be seen together. So he left. Needless to say, I was worried sick. After about 20 minutes, I drove to the store bought him some juice and things and drove to the er. I paid the security guard $5 to bring the stuff in to him. The guard came out and informed me there was no one there by that name. About 3 hours later, n called to tell me he was ok. I told him what I had done and asked why he wasn't there. He responded "I knew u would go so I went to a different hospital.". So today, with my new clear vision, I see that he made the whole thing up. I don't think he ever went to the hospital. He probably left me after sex and went back to work. I feel stunned. I am in disbelief. He is a true sociopath. He lies because he can. He is sadistic and controlling and used this to torture me. What do others think about this? Thanks for your feedback.