Shitty day

I cant even go one day NC. Today he fucked me over.. He had promised to help pay the electric bill and he came over to pick up his checks (mommy drove him but parked around the corner) .. Well he took his checks and gave HALF what he said he would give.. Only reason being is I threatened to call his dad and "expose" him and HER. i guess I should be happy I got half right? He gets benefits for me and my daughter through VA. The asshole is now saying he will give me more TOMORROW??? I went to file for divorce.. And can't without marriage cert. Which he has and wont give me. He wont give me paperwork I need to file for assistance. I spent most of my day calling him names via text.. Then I APOLOGIZED for it because I feel bad?? What is wrong with me?? Then after I apologize he texts me saying " right now fuck off leave me out of ur shit"!! Am I the hoover? I feel like a hoover!!